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Nkechi. 17. Nigerian-American. Biromantic bisexual. Fandom blog, music blog, writing blog, social justice blog, and everything in between.

1. high school will drain you. it’s panic attacks in the hallway and crying in the bathroom and eating lunch in the back of the library because the cafeteria makes your heart beat too fast. It’s getting high and throwing up. you will learn a lot about death and how to treat your cuts. You will also learn what it’s like to get drunk and laugh at the stars and how to write poetry that makes the world hurt less. You will read books that you fall in love with. you will fall in love. you’ll get closer to your mother because you’ll need someone to help you with your math homework and teach you how to put on your makeup and wipe away your tears.

2. the first boy you fall in love with will break you. he’ll tell you he loves you and convince you to fuck him in the back of his parents beat up volvo and then he’ll tell all his friends what you taste like and stop calling you before you fall asleep. delete his number and throw away the stuffed bear he won you at the carnival three weeks before. your carpet will be stained with tears and vomit and liquor and you’ll fight with you dad a lot more than usual. you’ll spit up pieces of your heart for weeks. you’ll burn alive when you see him in the halls. you won’t always feel like you’re cracking and a few months later you’ll be falling asleep on the phone with someone else. let it hurt for a little while but don’t let it kill you. never let it kill you.

3. the girl you’ve been best friends with for 9 years will stop speaking to you. one night you’ll make plans with her and she’ll cancel at the last minute because she’s sick but you’ll see her updating her snapchat story with pictures of empty alcohol bottles and blurry eyes and the mean girls who never let you sit with them. try to forgive her. she’s going through all the bloody, broken teeth, black and blue filled nights like you are. everyone’s trying to survive so don’t be too hard on anyone. especially yourself.

4. your teacher will ask the class questions and you’ll know the answers but you’ll keep your shaky hand between your knees and keep your tongue glued to the top of your mouth. don’t bother. speak out. nothing bad will happen. so when your biology teachers calls on you to tell him about last nights assignment, don’t stare at the spinning ground and mumble through numb lips. you’re smarter than you think and nobody is looking at you anyway.

5. you’re not his baby girl. when he tries to kiss your neck and pull you onto his lap, get up and leave. you don’t have to go upstairs with him. you don’t have to sleep with him because he’s begging. it’s not your job to fuck around with boys who can’t remember your name. take care of yourself even when he’s calling you a tease and whispering just loud enough for you to hear.

6. go out. go to football games and sit on hard metal bleachers for hours and take shots that taste like bleach and hold hands with the cute boy from english class. go to that dumb party and don’t complain or stand in the corner. things are always moving. people are always falling in love and laughing and putting themselves back together. be part of it.

7. ask for help. you don’t have to let yourself rot. when you don’t know how to do something in math class ask your teacher to explain. when your heart falls out of your chest and shatters at your feet, ask your best friend to come over and watch bad movies with you until you both feel less dead. when the boy you’re convinced you love kisses someone else, ask your mother to help stop the bleeding. you’re not alone so stop acting like it. no more breakdowns at three in the morning locked in the bathroom screaming. your older sister is still awake. crawl into bed with her.

8. it all ends. high school doesn’t last forever and 6 years from now you’ll be whole again. you won’t remember the names of the boys who made you cry or the girls who fucked you over. you won’t remember the names of the teachers who made your cheeks turn red and tied your stomach in knots. you won’t remember the time you fell down the stairs in front of everyone. you won’t remember what it’s like to want to die. try to remember the times you laughed so hard you spit out your drink. try to remember the people who helped put you back together. try to remember the people who bled with you when things got messy, when they call you at 3 in the morning to ask how you’ve been, answer the phone.

9. don’t forget to breathe.

—   9 things to remember when you are 14  (via extrasad)

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Untitled 3OH!3 Fic

Fandom: 3OH!3

Pairing: Nat Motte/Sean Foreman

Summary: God, Sean was easy.

Notes: I wrote this little drabble way back in 2010, so even tho I made some minor edits, the writing style is still prob a bit different than my usual. Decided it was worth posting ‘cause the world can always use more 3oh!3 fic imho.

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voltafr:

Gem babe

voltafr:

Gem babe

(via rtjoel)

scribbleshouse:

SIRIUS FLIRTING WITH LITERALLY EVERY TEACHER TRYING (and failing) TO GET OUT OF DETENTION

He tried it with Dumbledore once and the man laughed so hard it almost worked, but then McGonagall came around the corner. Sirius brags until his dying day that he once seduced Dumbledore himself.

James never actually believes him until one day Sirius gives Dumbledore this huge dramatic wink and then Dumbledore winks back.

James stands up and walks out of the great hall.

(via vintage-masquerade)

martab99queenie:

His smile melts my heart ❤

martab99queenie:

His smile melts my heart ❤

(via rocklikefreddie)

thesylverlining:

agelfeygelach:

importantbirds:

THIS IT.  THE TIENST YELLLER PEEPER. SIZE OF A GRAP.  PLEASE HANDLE A GENTLE.  ALLOW THE SMALL YELL.  SO GRAND.

TEENY.

SMALL BABY BIRD

(Source: aprilkicsim, via toothianafairy)

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lacigreen:

i think we all need a little fall magic rn

lacigreen:

i think we all need a little fall magic rn

(via tainted-flesh-polluted-soul)

axonmanage:

mercurial-spirit:

rainbowrites:

kaitlin-kelly:

burdge:

ok but hear me out- what about a lightning bolt scar that looked like real lightning?

#before the films came out this is what i thought it looked like #like his scar doesnt even look like a scar in the films or offish illustrations it looks like a scratch #i think its cool to imagine his scar being very conspicuous and deep idk (via parmachkai​)

I love this, the way it looks like his head was split open and then healed back jagged and wrong. Reminds me of how there’s a little bit of Voldemort’s soul hiding within that scar.
Also yeah, the movie scar just looks like a weird little ‘N’ scratched over his eyebrow. IT BUGGED ME SO MUCH

Head cannon accepted.

YES THANK YOU SO MUCH

axonmanage:

mercurial-spirit:

rainbowrites:

kaitlin-kelly:

burdge:

ok but hear me out- what about a lightning bolt scar that looked like real lightning?

parmachkai

I love this, the way it looks like his head was split open and then healed back jagged and wrong. Reminds me of how there’s a little bit of Voldemort’s soul hiding within that scar.

Also yeah, the movie scar just looks like a weird little ‘N’ scratched over his eyebrow. IT BUGGED ME SO MUCH

Head cannon accepted.

YES THANK YOU SO MUCH

(via breadwing)

plantbot:

as a skinny person, you are catered to and you don’t even realize it. did you ask for that? no and i understand that. but you will never cry your eyes out in a dressing room because even the largest size doesn’t fit. you will never deal with rejection from a guy solely because of your weight. you are socially accepted.

is any kind of body shaming disgusting? yes. but please don’t act like you’d rather be fat. 

(via shitagi--nashi)

dumb angsting, ignore me

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fuckyeahmercury:

Freddie Mercury, 1974.Photo by Michael Putland

fuckyeahmercury:

Freddie Mercury, 1974.
Photo by Michael Putland

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countessnoir:

onlylolgifs:

When your playing a fighting game for the first time with your friend.


Ok so why are their movements so on point? lol

(via afro-elf)

just got back from my 1st r-rated film in a theater. shit was wild #tusk #kevinsmith #movie #walrusyes